Reflecting back at 2013

2013From a blog point of view it’s been a very quiet year, however from my personal stand point it’s been a roller coaster of a year with ups and downs all along the way.  Talking about myself in a blog post is kinda new to me, but a close friend suggested it may help, so I’m not sure where this will go.

For the early part of this year I had a hard time dealing with some personal issues.  I’ve always tried to keep those around me happy, smiling and laughing, but this year reached a point where I traded my own happiness for those around me.  Quite simply put, whilst I seemed happy on the outside, on the inside I was frustrated, angry and emotional, likely to snap at the smallest of things.  Some days I was completely unapproachable and for those of you that know me and read this, I am sorry for being a cranky, irritable ass-hole.

A huge turning point for me this year was back in May where my brother Chris and his lovely fiancée Leone, invited the family to the Maldives to celebrate their wedding.  I’m not much of a traveller but the prospect of experiencing white sands and clear blue seas was truly exciting.  In short, it was the best holiday I have ever experienced and some day I hope to revisit the island of Komandoo.  Experiencing all sorts of new activities for me from kayaking, diving and snorkelling to sampling foods I had never heard of let alone tasted, opened my eyes to the world around me.  It took some time for me to get accustomed to complete relaxation, but oh boy, I cannot remember a time I felt that relaxed.  The island truly was what you would imagine as paradise!  Before the trip I have to admit I felt trapped and didn’t appreciate that there was more to life than the daily grind.  I remember thinking on the plane trip back “I have to change my perception of life and the way I live it”.

I started exercising a lot more, changed my diet and started to become a little happier.  A promotion at work helped with my self confidence and I started liking who I was.  Unfortunately the unbelievable work load of the job bundled with the frustrations of a relationship at the time started pulling me back down a hole I had dug myself out of earlier that year.  Irritability had grown to the point where I was looking for change, and not just a little of it – I was talking upping and moving, not just countries, but continents to try and escape my life at one time.

Then came October with the birth of my wonderful little nephew William.  Seeing the little fellow made me re-evaluate life around me and the changes I needed to make came a little clearer.  My personal relationship at the time was feeling forced and I was not happy with where it was going for both of us.  I have to say I don’t regret the past by any means as the good far outweighed the bad, but given the time that had passed, it wasn’t fair on either of us to carry on with the way our relationship was heading.

I’ve wiped all doubts and frustrations from the back of my mind and I feel more in control of where things will head, both at work and in my personal life – I have already started to feel a lot more optimistic and happier.  Even though it is still early days, a part of my life is already starting to look promising thanks to my close friends Andrew and Anna (thanks guys!).

So enough of me thinking of the past, it’s time for me to look forward to the future and start embracing life! Bring on 2014!

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